I am having mix feelings.
Something just felt so wrong.
I am being deceitful toward my friends and myself.


I want to be alone, 
but I am always involved in all kinds of stuff.
Maybe I should spent more time focus on my study b/c I am doing awful.
The confidence I have in myself makes me arrogant,
I hate that.
But I also enjoyed it.

It's been years since I have that feeling,
the eagerness to learn,
enjoying the work, the test.
I felt like I haven't been to school for ages.
My mind just won't take in new stuff,
it might have something to do with my arrogance,
it must be.